I am borderline diabetic, I have hyper-insulinsim. I have had problem since I was little. It runs in the family. I remember when I was maybe in the forth grade. I was eating lunch and all of a sudden I didn't feel good. I went to the office and right as I opened my mouth, I passed out. I hit my head really hard, the school had like a tile or something like that for a floor. I remember the next year when I came back from summer break they had carpeted it. I still laugh about it!
Also when I was pregnant, with all three I had gestational diabetes. With the first two I had to take insulin and that is not fun. When you have gestational diabetes there are alot of things that can happen to you and the baby. Example a big baby, Sophie was 10lbs. I guess that could be part of my weight problem!!
Anyways, so I want to up my protien, I did pretty good today...well better that yesterday!! So my goal for protein is 20-30% of my food intake, which I did today. My protein was 20%. I would still like to up that! So that was my good!
The Bad, well I went over on my calorie intake by 117. I could have done worse and HAVE done worse but...my goal is to lose weight!! I wasn't very active today, I have a cold coming on and the little girls were sick. Excuses, Excuses I know!! I still need to burn 766 calories to meet my goal...that is not going to happen! My carb intake was higher than I want, it was 49%. My fat, oh my fat..I guess you are what you eat!! I thought I was doing so good, my fat was 29%. I want that to go down by a lot!!! Now for my steps, which is borderline ugly! I only took 3347 steps. I CAN DO BETTER!!!!!!
Now for the UGLY!! So I did really good eating all day until tonight! I made a tater-tot casserole which sounds gross but hmmm it is really good. I didn't eat as much as i usually do but I ate more than my share!!!! It makes me really mad that I can't control myself! I know I want to lose this weight but why can't I control myself. What makes me even more mad is how many times am I going to keep doing this to myself. I am sure this is not going to be the last night I eat too much! How do I take control?!?!? For my other Ugly, why can't I get off my ass and walk around the house or move more. I keep telling myself, get up and walk, get up and walk, JUST GET UP AND WALK. Why can't I do it? I am so tired, so very tired and I know I will feel better if I just start doing things. I just can't get up. I mean my house needs some TLC and the kids get just as board as I do. I am not sure if it is depression, I guess it must be but if I just get up I will feel better, darn it!!!
This is so true!!!! So I am done being hard on myself!!! Here are my goals for tomorrow
1. Drink all my water
2. up my protein to 25%
3. fat down to 20%
4. 3847-4000 steps!
5. Stay within my goals on my BB (bodybugg)
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