Why be negative?

So I am so tired of being negative and only seeing the negative I do and not all the good! When I lost all that weight in high school, I remember always looking for the unexpective in the day. The part of the day, that was not planned and you didn't see coming. Now I know I have tried to do this before and when you are a stay at home mom, and never go anywhere, that is so hard to do! I am going to try, even if it is so little. It is something other to focus on than being heavy and life it self! I am here to inspire myself and maybe others NOT to bitch about the things that I can change and just don't want to!! That is the fact, I can change and I just don't want to. That is a hard thing to adment, it is so easier to bitch and make it seem like you try and try and nothing is going your way and that is so. I know what I need to do and I know that it will work!! When I lost all the weight, I love working out, if I didn't I felt like CRAP!!! I could really tell the difference, I would feel tired and yucky when I didn't work out. I did a 45min step aerobics video an then my mom had this thing kinda like a bike but you used you, your arms and legs and pull yourself up and at night I did that for 15mins, plus I was very active. I was doing beauty school, high school and cheerleading. It is funny, I find the busier I am the better I am!!! Although my kids seem to take all the positive and engery I have in a matter of seconds, my goal is to find the the small surprises in the day and to look forward to that and to drink my darn water!!!!